update (7/1/2008) - uploaded the song here http://myspace.com/markusng

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God I don know, I don know
I really want to, but it doesn show
My projections, my convictions
Muddled mess, so much confusion
I don know,
I don know.

What do I say when youe heard it all
Excuses, lies, remorse, more lies
Yet still I dare to mouth them words
I sorry for how much it hurts and disappoints

I not perfect, but I gonna try
seek the truth and apply
I want to honestly repent
Give you my 100%

I want to want to love You
as You love me too
I want to want to live life
as You want me to
I want to want to honour You
More than anything I want to want to

Iot there yet, but I trying
So help me God.

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Mark 8:34
"... If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me."

So, so difficult..

i'm (not?) here.

notes to self, hehe :) go read someone else's blog if you want proper posts.

here's a video of something i did this summer - projek kalsom, a summer camp run annually by msian uni students in the uk for form 4 students in less-developed parts of msia.